hola~

dat nite kan me decide to go to clinic kan..check2 seme, blood pressure oK, temperature oK..then cakap kat doktor, sakit kepala rasa cm migrain..doktor analyzed me as sTresS..

me..stress???whadaaaa~~

may be kot..tah ler, tibe2 byk lak bnda rasa di pk kan 2, 3 menjak neh..may be org akan cakap stress neh sumthing related with my work, but not really..mmg la keje quite stressful but i still can handle it by my own..

first thing yg me rasa may be related n stress is when nk tuwonkan berat bdn..seme org asik cakap me dah berisi skang compared to dulu, esp b4 masuk keje..sebagai seorang yg pnah 'gumbira' dulu, issu isi-berisi neh very the very sensitif to me..sangat nekad nk tuwonkan my weight n kontrol my makan..but the point is, ingt senang ker nk kontrol makan..same jer ngan issue lelaki nk stop smoking..!!

second thing is related with my work..my job scope is handling helpdesk and bla bla bla..tatau nape, 2 3 menjak neh..like hellnyee keje..work load dia punyaa laa bapakk!! and i can feel the pressure..plus ngan helpdesk wat2 ade tabung saman for those yg wat salah, depends on salah yg kite wat..send emel no attachment 50sen..send emel twice 50 sen also etc..cm WTF!! gaji dah ah sket, then nk kene bayar2 plak!!i noe that tabung saman neh bagus actually, nk prevent kitorg wat salah and nk ajar kitorg..but then tah ah..sumtimes tak logik ah..luckily, me very careful bout those things..cme kene bayar saman semalam sbb masuk after break lambat sket, bout 15 minutes late*hikhik* bajet diorg dah balik =P pe g, wat2 gamble sorang2 ah =D *tak kisah* alasan: tertido =P

3rd thing is about my personal thing..tah la..i dunno what to do..its soo complicated rite now..me now single..tapi mcm tak single..from another point, me like single, but taken..dari satu sudut agi, me cud be said like TTM..me penat mcm neh..actually, sumtimes its good to be single..but sumtimes its good to be single like this..theres people taking care bout `ya..but dunno..tah ler..tatau nk cakap*sigh*

another thing is bout my family and frenz..as y`all noe that me the eldest kan..so after ayah ninggal, kalau bleh me mmg nk take care of my family..but then me nk enjoy n hepi with my own life..at the same time, nk satisfy and make my famili hepi..the matter here is, izit easi to make everyone heppi..and sumtimes u have to sacrifice urself utk org len..
issue with my hosmet?
hurmm..lemme think..
biasa ah dah tinggal seumah neh..perangai org masing2..here and there..but still can manage..kalau tak tahan jer, lari balik keramat ah*hikhik*

another thing yg dok pk adalah bile la petronas nk panggey keje neh..nk call tanye ponx, hati rasa mcm still early..jez wait n see la..

so tuh jer la kot issue kat kepala neh ha..last nite my mum call and try to korek cerita or my izit theres problem..she think may be ngan tmpt keje..then ask me again bout my personal problem..i said oK mum, still can handle it*wat2 jer tadek pa pe*tanak serabutkan mak ngan my problem lagi..biar lah ku tanggung sendiri..
and 'awak' try to korek jugak..soh cerite if ade masalah and me still cakap 'tadek pa pe' =)
my baby tanye plak izit me makan n taking pill diet..hurmm..half yes and another half lagi no..and i dunno izit related to my kepala cakit2 neh..soccay bie, yg cakit is me and myself..as long as u r hepi and 'bahagia' with ur life, i dun mind feeling this pain..

gtg..nk balik basuh baju..nk kongker penyidai =P *hampeh*